Home Alone on New Year's

There is a difference between being home alone and alone with Jesus. I have lived much of my life feeling alone, even in the midst of people around me. I have felt the most alone, however, with nobody around. Even in my early years of learning to follow the Lord, I spent more time alone than I would have liked. I was caught up in religion rather than relationship, and I spent my time trying to "do right" rather than to spend time in the presence of the Lord. In the past two years, I have spent even more time alone - since my husband abandoned me two years ago and my life has been in constant transition and transformation. But this alone has been different. This has been an alone with the Lord. I have learned that the very best place to be is in the presence of Jesus, to sit at His feet, to enjoy His company, to share His love, to feel Him in and around me. So when I make the decision to spend New Year's Eve home alone because I do not want to share the streets with drunk drivers, I can celebrate the evening with the one who created it. Tonight, I will be alone with the Lord. I will readily admit I would love to be surrounded by loved ones, but I did not have that opportunity tonight. Instead, I received the greatest invitation of all. I will spend the night in the arms of my beloved. Jesus.